253. On the Edge of a Great Chasm

ChasmThere was a scene from many years ago when I was so anxious and the tension in my body so great that it felt as if I had two hernias in my groin that were ready to explode.

In meditation, after completing a long run outside, I found myself standing on the edge of a great chasm. The left-hand side was my world; the other side was God’s world. I was surrounded by turmoil where I stood alone and longed for the peace I sensed was on the other side. However, the distance between the two was too great to reach by any means of my own. I realized the only way to get across was to jump into the bottomless chasm and hope God would catch me.

I stood looking across for a long time, debating within myself whether to make the jump or not. If He didn’t catch me, my life was lost. I could hear His invitation to jump – over and over again He encouraged me to jump. He said I could trust Him.  Finally, I jumped and went down, down, down in the endless space, wondering if this was the end of me. After what seemed like a drop of miles and miles, I felt His great hands catch me and gently bring me safely to the other side. I experienced great peace and fell asleep in the chair I was sitting in.

About Patrick Day

In 2010, I escaped from four long years of deep, dark depression. This blog shares lessons I learned from those years as depicted in my autobiography - How I Escaped from Depression - as well as other insights about depression and anxiety that only come from someone who has gone through it. When you have a heart attack, you become an expert in heart attacks. When you have diabetes, you become an expert in that condition. As such, I am an expert in depression, with a four-year experiential degree and graduate studies in how to live a life going forward that keeps the ever-lurking Depression at a healthy distance.
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