128. A Guardian Lie

I was first introduced to guardian lies through Theophostic Prayer Ministry, which my brother Bill used with me even before I suffered from major depression, when I was in moderate depression and able to function normally; but it wasn’t a fun life.

I won’t get into the actual event that triggered the lie in me, other than to say it was when I was about twelve years old. As my brother kept probing, I was able to identify the guardian lie that was the source of most of the other lies in my life. It was this: “I’m on my own.” And there was another lie that was directly a result of the guardian lie: “I need to be in control.”

Through deep healing psychotherapy

administered by Bill, the Lord revealed the truth of the event that happened to me back then: “Jesus has gone with me in the past, is with me in the present, and will be with me in the future. He is my guide and comforter. He is ever there for me.”

That resonated a chord deep within me, but  I didn’t take it in fully experientially, not until I was depressed and faced with the fact that I couldn’t really control anything – sleep, appetite,  emotions, fears, feelings of hopelessness, and a plethora of other things associated with depression. The guardian lie was contributing to my depression; I needed the truth that had been given to me years before.

However, I was yet in so much physical, mental, and emotional pain that I could not deal with the spiritual aspect. I needed a regimen of medicine to suppress the worst symptoms and bring me out of crisis (until you are out of crisis, it is very hard to address anything else).  Then I needed to stabilize my mind, will, and emotions via psychotherapy. When I improved to moderate depression, I was finally able to recapture the guardian lie and God’s truth. However, this was not a neat little package that soon brought me out of depression. I went back and forth with medicine, healing for my psyche, and incorporating God into my life in an intimate relationship. All this took five years.

As I was slowly recovering, I repeated the truth to myself scores of times each day. And one day the realization of the holistic nature of overcoming depression – the healing of body, soul, and spirit – came crashing into my consciousness. That’s what I now call the three-legged stool of triumphing over depression.

As I discovered tools to address each of the three entities, my recovery took off until I finally popped out on the other side of the black box of depression. That’s where I am today.

My ministry now is to coach those in depression so they don’t have to go through a learning curve of five years like I did. I have seen dramatic healing of depression in less than a year in some instances. It’s because I have learned to incorporate the healing of body, soul, and spirit in my own life so I can help others go through the right sequence in their lives.


About Patrick Day

In 2010, I escaped from four long years of deep, dark depression. This blog shares lessons I learned from those years as depicted in my autobiography - How I Escaped from Depression - as well as other insights about depression and anxiety that only come from someone who has gone through it. When you have a heart attack, you become an expert in heart attacks. When you have diabetes, you become an expert in that condition. As such, I am an expert in depression, with a four-year experiential degree and graduate studies in how to live a life going forward that keeps the ever-lurking Depression at a healthy distance.
This entry was posted in Overcoming Depression, Psychotherapy and tagged , . Bookmark the permalink.

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s